Love Yourself First
I found myself single for a good 2 years after I experienced a very traumatic breakup. I began wallowing in sever self-pity, doubting all my choices and isolating from any goodness. I found myself in a dark and desolate place… and I chose to be there. It was a rut I could not pull myself out of… because I was comfortable in that depressed state.
People did not want to be around me, my energy drained my friends and I was an emotional vampire. I was a pessimistic, ‘glass half empty’ kind of person. There is nothing worse than being around a slumped over and sulky person. And during all of this, I could not understand why I couldn’t find love! It’s laughable now.
One drunken evening I found myself crying to my sister. She looked at me and blatantly announced, ‘Your life isn’t that bad. Grow up. Move on. Don’t cry to me anymore!’ And that’s when it hit me… I needed to put on my big girl panties, smile, fake it till I make it and actually have some fun. I did just that, I never indulged in my sadness while out with friends and soon that sadness actually disappeared, there was no need for it anymore. Soon I noticed that I was being asked out on dates by some good guys for a change! Shock horror! I began to respect myself. This is when I found the love of my life.
Make the choice to be happy. It is possible. Love yourself…. Be loved.